Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Everyday I get up with this hope that today there will be a miracle which will mend everything, which will make me feel happy, will make me feel good about myself. I feel like doing anything that will make me appreciate my existence. Anything that will for one moment will make me genuinely happy, will make me feel good about myself.
Mahastri says that it was for you to have control on your emotions. If killing your emotions or suppressing your feelings means having control on your emotion then yes I do have control on my emotions. But then why it makes me feel emotionless? why no act of anyone touches me anymore? Why I haven't felt like Wow since last so many months? Even grave situations is not able to stir the calmness or senseless feeling in my heart. Its good too as I no longer get bothered by anything but sometimes it makes me feel I have become too calm especially with strangers, acquaintances and people in general.