On the brink!!!

Rest In Peace..

As I stand on the brink,
ready to take a plunge to my afterlife,
I give a last thought to the stuffs,
 I am leaving behind.

Have I done a bit,
to help my folks give life a try.
Or for some souls,
to drop a tear of cry.

Now its the time to fly,
to let go of the earth that still try to hold.
To meet the earth beneath,
that will take me on journey to abode.

As I leave the brink,
and began the free fall.
A voice tells me.
you could still have done few things for people who deserved more.

No, now its done.
I cannot change a thing.
I cannot take a step back,
nor can I make another beginning.

Jump Jump Jump!!! A voice inside me yells.
There is no one coming to stop you.
Let go of the land,

As the gravity pulls me down,
I scroll through the history of my wretched soul.
I thank God for being kind to my wants,
and for not giving me what I din't deserve at all.

As I tear through the thin air on my descent down,
I feel light like a feather.
In few seconds I will be free of my miseries

.........

Koi Kutton Se Darta Hai,

Koi Jhullon Se,

To Koi Darta Hai Duniya Ke Banavati Usoolo Se,

Or Ek Hum Hai Ki Darte Hai Tujhse Yahan Tak,

Ki Daar Lagta Hai Tere Fenke Hue Phoolo Se. (Means even the flowers that you throw at me )

Love as misunderstood by me ...

It was Valentines Day yesterday, although I started writing something sad, filled with anger but as I went to see my Didibhai this weekend and on 13th we were discussing something, the after thought of that discussion made me think of the feelings that I have captured in the below poem. 

Thought of writing in English first but somehow completed the hindi version first. Have tried to capture poetically my feelings and hope it has come good.

Jab bhi baat hoti hai Mohabbat ke fasano ki, 

Khud bakhud aa jati ho tum Jehn me mere khyalo ki.

Geet jaise hi koi bajta hai mere kano me, 

Tumhari tasveer hu bahu ban jati hai un tarano me.

Dekh kar kisi bhi komal shishu ki chehre ki khushi,

Yaad aa jati hai tumhari wo khilkhilati madhur hansi.

Jab bhi ghatti hai koi, achi buri ghatna, 

Vyakul hokar mann ka wo tere liye sab ratna.

Kha ke kuch bhi swadist, 

Chak kar lajeej khaana,

Dil me jagti hai hasrat,

ki tumko bhi hai chakkhana.

Phulon ki mehkti khushboo, 

Panchiyon ka chehchana,

Aisi jaagahon pe aksar 

Dhundha hai tera theekana.

Issi tarah to humne tujhse Mohabbat ki hai,

Na tujhse kuch kaha hai, 

Or na hi mere dosto ne kuch sunni hai.

Bade dino baad....

Pata Nahi Najakat Hoti Hai,

Ya Teri Shararat Hoti Hai,

Par Tu Jab Bhi Dekh Kar Muskurati Hai,

Khuda Kasam Qyamat Hoti Hai….

.....

Dara Sehma Sa Rehta Hai Dost Mera,

Or Hum Hai Ki Apne Jubaan Pe Lagam Kass Na Pae,

Wo Rota Hai Ye Soch Kar Ki Hum Usse Khafa Hai,

Or Ek Hum Hai Jo Usse Khafa Ho Na Pae.

Dreams...

Kya Khub Hai Ye Band Aankhon Ki Duniya,

Yahan Nibhti Hai Jo Hai Apne Mann Ki,

Gunjti Hai Yahan Khushiyon Ki Khilkhilahat,

Baatein Hoti Hai Apnepan Ki.

Kabhi Mein Arab Desh Ka Baadshah Hota,

Kabhi Hind Desh Ka Wazir.

Par Jis Desh Ka Bhi Raja Hota,

Mauz Karta Wahan Har Fakir.

Har Pal Sang Hoti Hai Mitro Ki Toli,

Hota Hai Mann Ka Koi Meet,

Jab Mann Karta Mein Hun Khelta Kudta,

Jab Mann Karta Gata Hun Geet.

Na Hoti Hai Koi Adhuri Aasha,

Na Muskil Hota Hai Koi Kaam,

Jab Jee Hota Hai Wahan Chala Jata,

Ghum Aata Desh, Videsh, Char Dhaam.

Har Dil Pe Mein Hun Raaj Karta,

Har Kisi Ko Hai Mujhse Pyaar,

Jisse Jee Mein Aata Yaad Karta,

Main Hota Sabka Mitr, Sabka Yaar.

Ye Toh Hai Sapno Ki Mehfil,

Jisse Kehte Hai Mann Ka Pratibimb,

Isliye Toh Dekhta Hun Mein Sapne,

Chaiye Ho Soti Raat Ya Jagta Hua Din.

Winter ...

Thithurti hui thand ko badati sard hawa,

Oos ki boondein se lipte hue patte,

Dhund ki chaadar ko oode hue dharti,

In sab se sawra hai sardi ka ye mausam.

Bade kasth se sawere ko uthna,

Garam thande pani se jee bhar ke nahana,

Kanpte kanpte wo kapdo ko pehnna,

Or Mummy ka jabardasti jacket or topi lagwana.

Bus me beth kar khidki se jhakne ki wo koshish,

Phir parde se seeshon pe jami nami ko pochna,

Haathon se khud ko kas ke jakarna,

Phir garmi lagne par jacket hathana.

Office me ghusne se pehli ki wo chand kadme,

Wo chehre pe apne, gili hawa ka takrana,

Sang chalte wo kapdo se dhake rang birange sehkarmi,

Or unhe dekh kar mand mand muskana.

Kursi pe apne jacket ko latkana,

Or waise hi bina jacket ke bahar chale jana,

Haatho me lekar coffee ke mug ko,

Is mastane mausam ka lutf uthana.

Dopahar ke samae dhund ko cheerti wo Suraj ki kirane,

Or kirano ki baarish se har staha ka chamakna,

Us Dhoop se khud ko niharne ke liye,

Wo dosto ke saath campus ka chakar lagana.

In haseen lamho ka ye mausam,

On lamho ka mere dil ko behlana,

Bhale cheen lo mujhse do din ke liye saawan,

Par kabhi na ruke in sardiyon ka aana.

Words...

Dictionary, thesaurus are full of words,

An arrangement of characters that when rearranged,

lead to a new thought.

Words that creates our speech,

that helps us to talk, converse,

That are spoken by literate, illiterate, people adverse.

Words are ingredients that make n break.

Something that everyone can freely give n take.

Words are needed to put forth your emotions,

To decorate n give voice to heart's creation.

Words can be few, they can be long,

They are what tells a touchin story,

or constitute a lovely song.

They express a lover's delight,

or things that his eyes imply,

These are what relieves a baby from the effort of wail n cry.

Words are what compels a war,

Can bring brutality to end.

Words when misunderstood can turn foes of friends.

They may be simple, they may be complex,

Once uttered can be both disappointing or may leave you perplexed.

When spoken by authority, they make you abide,

When rendered by a child, they make you pride.

Earth, air, water, fire and space, are the essential elements to life,

But words are what are must, for us to thrive.

Chidiya

Chidiya (Its Hindi for Bird :) :) )

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I am a human I want to fly,

like the birds I too should touch the sky.

Like the Cuckoo singing on the distant tree,

I want to fill the world with sweet melody.

Dancing, rejoicing, spreading my feather,

let me be the Peacock, embracing the weather.

Sharp as a Crow and pure as a Dove,

Spreading the message of truth and love.

Wandering from place to place,

picking from tree to tree,

In the night I will retire to my nest,

to the warmth of my family.

To keep a vigil I will Roost on a height,

And will give a loud crow everyday,

to joyfully welcome the morning light.

What I have that birds don't have.

May be the means of destruction

and power to grab.

Like us birds are too Predator and Prey.

For them too the need is to survive everyday.

I wish I could be like a bird,

but is there anything about me that bird says ,

"I want to have, I want to have" ?

PS: I started writing this as with most of my poems with a negative aspect like I don't have this like a bird etc.

Sharing what I wrote

"

Look at their wings,

how they touch the sky.

While I am human,

who can't even fly.

Listen to the Cuckoo,

singing on the distant tree.

While I am human,

without any melody.

Hail the peacock,

who dances in the rain.

While I am human,

wiping the window pane.

The black , shrill Crow

preaches to speak only true.

While I am human,

who lies every moment to make it thru.

The Rooster roosting on the post,

Welcomes the morning with his loud crow.

While I am human,

who never shows the delight  and
always give a cry of "Oh no".

Picking fruits from tree to tree,
and retiring in the night to the cosy nest.
While I am human,
who have a home full of luxury
but complains I am still far from my crest.

Is there anything with me,
which the birds wish to be?
which I as a human,
can make them envy ? 

"

but then I thought why not write it like what I will do if I will have it. So I wrote Chidiya.

Like with most of my poems (Ok I have just written 3 or 4 :) ) I wasn't sure where to end it and as I cherish to write non-ending poems, poems that can be expanded or can have more to say or contradict, so thought of ending it at this question which I myself want to answer. I feel there are lot of good things that humans have which other species should want and will definitely try to find a poetic answer for it. It feels good to be poetic about something else too. :)

I saw a Dream ...

I saw a dream,

No not while sleeping at night.

It was dream seen with open eyes,

in broad day light.

I saw a dream,

A dream of impossible sights.

Of places, cities and towns,

filled with faces happy n bright.

I saw a dream,

Of times when you can play in the sun and dance in the rain.

Or run like wind in the fields of grain.

I saw a dream,

Filled with moments of laughter,

Moments of joy,

Moments when you can behave like a one year old boy.

I saw a dream,

A dream of everything true,

When you don't have to be called fake,

You can be the way who are you.

I saw a dream,

Where dreams come true.

Where the one you love says I Love You.

I saw a dream,

people talking everyday.

Expressing what all they feel,

Saying all the things they have to say.

I saw a dream,

When I can be you,

You can be me.

When there are no separate God but only one thy.

I saw a dream,

Ya it was a dream,

A dream to see everything,

just like a dream.

I saw a dream. I saw a dream

Black or White who is more colored ?

THIS POEM WAS WRITTEN BY AN AFRICAN CHILD,, N WAS NOMINATED FOR BEST POEM OF 2005

When i born,i blackWhen i grow up,i black

When i go in sun,.i black

When i scared, i black

When i sick,i black

n when i die i am still black!!!!

AND U DA WHITE FELLA

When u born,u pink

When u grow up,u white

When u go in sun,u red

when u cold,u blue

When u scared,u yellow

When u sick,u green

AND when u die,u gray……

And u call me COLORED?????

Don't know about it being really nominated or written as stated or what but nevertheless a very true and touching composition.

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Aadmi aadmi se milta hai,
Par dil yahan kisi-kisi se milta hai.
Bhul Jaata hun uska har sitam,
Wo kuch is Saadgi se milta hai.

Jo hume chahiye...

Few days back I was talking to one of my friend who happens to be a hunk like the one on which girls drool...so he was telling me about some indirect proposal that he got , which he simply laughed off.....Ok now this guy din't laugh off at her feelings , it was more of a laugh like "Who me ???..Are you ok?..You have developed a good sense of humor of late "...as he is so critical of himself. And also the girl din't had those kind of "feelings " to be taken seriously. Now how did I get to this is another story but with due respect to that girl who happens to be another friend of mine , I know she wasn't serious at all....and this episode itself wasn't the one which was to be taken seriously, it was more of a leg pulling thing and also there is a chance that the girl was just pulling his leg too

So hearing that these golden words uttered by Akshay Kumar ringed in my head

"Jo hume chahiye usse hum nahi chahiye , or Jisko hum chaiye wo Kisko chaiye..."....lol

Seriously this post was written with good humor without the intention of maligning anyones image....and if it has I am extremely sorry. Now when I read the original post even I feel that it gave wrong interpretation.

The only point in the post that I wanted to make was that these things in life happen for sure where you love someone who doesn't love you and at the same time that someone loves someone else who doesn't love him/her..... and no one will let go of that desire for that someone although things would have been much easier for you if at least you made the one who loves you happy, by returning their love because at the end of the day what everyone wants is someone who loves them and not only the one whom they love. They can always develop love for someone who loves them but getting someone to love you is the tougher task.

Tum saath hote ho....

One of my friend once shared a line by Mir which goes like this

"Tum saath hote ho jab koi dusra nahi hota....."

Which I improvised as ...

"Tum saath hote ho jab koi dusra nahi hota, isliye khud se dosti ki hai, taki kabhi tanha na ho....."

And by the laws of corollary following is also true at times

"Hum nazar aate hai jab koi dusra nahi hota, warna bheedh me humara hona na hona ek samaan hai...."

Khamoshi...

Main Sach Bolkar bhi Haar Jaata Hun,
Uski Khamoshi Mujhe Jhutla Deti Hai.
Mujhe lagta hai Maine Sab Kaha hai Usse,
Uski Khamoshi Mujhe UnSuna Kar Deti Hai.

Kami dhundta hun....

Teri aankhon mein apni Chhavi dhundta hun,
Teri labzo mein apni Hansi dhundta hun.
Yakeen hai mujhe ki tujhe mujh se pyar nahi,
Bas us yakeen me koi Kami dhundta hun.....

Tujhse Milta Hun...

Tujhse Milta hun Simatne Ke liye..
Tujhse Milta hun to Aur Bhikhar Jaata Hun....

And we blame God...

Taken from Shayari community in orkut...

To GOD

Jis pal milti hai khushi mujhe, kyon waqt woh kabhie thamta nahi
Tere seene mein dil nahi ya shayad dil mein hi tere mamta nahi

GOD

Kisi ne dil ko mere paththar kahaa, kisi ko paththar mein main mil gaya
Koi khush hai chaand nikalne se, kisi ko gam hai sooraj dhal gaya
Tu khush tha shayad itna ki teri aankh se aansoo nikal gaya
Maine dekha bas teri aankh mein aaansoo, mujhse waqt tera badal gaya

Tha pehle badla jab waqt tera, har gam ka baadal pighal gaya
Mujhe gam ka to ilzaam diya, na yaad khushi mein ek pal kiya
Tune paakar sab kuchh kho diya, mujhe kho kar kya haasil kiya
Maine badala tha sirf waqt tera, tune fitrat ko hi badal liya

Kisi ne dil ko mere paththar kahaa, kisi ko paththar mein main mil gaya
Koi khush hai chaand nikalne se, kisi ko gam hai sooraj dhal gaya

Please let me cry...

An impulsive poem but I think the best I have written so far :)

I was running fast, could not see it coming,
I fell down, got a cut and it started bleeding,
Please don't come near,Please don't let it heal,
Let me feel the pain, Please let me cry...

I was never in Love before, I never had a start,
You did not break my heart but it still did hurt,
Please don't put a hand around me, please don't console,
Let me feel the pain, Please let me cry...

I never felt the urge to speak, never had the desire of telling,
Something within me is driving , something within me is compelling
Please let me shout, please don't stop me from yelling,
Let me feel the pain, Please let me cry...

I have never failed before, I never went down,
No..No I am not stopping, I still have the urge to go on
Please let me pause , please let me take a breath,
Let me feel the pain, Please let me cry...

Bas aise hi ....

Was writing this while writing "Psycho", just to tell my original love hindi that I have not forgotten her...but now not feeling like completing it...so here it goes.

Palke Band Kar loon to Dekhun tujhe,
Phir bhi nazron ko meri teri talaash kyun hai?

Chehre pe tere Khushi or us khushi ki mujh par kabhi barish,
Phir bhi chehre pe mere udaasi kyun hai?

Na main tere rasston ki manzil or na hi main tere dariya ka saahil,
Phir bhi tere safar ka rahi banne ki mujhme tamanna kyun hai ?

Naa tu mere khwabo ki tasveer, or na hi mere dil ko kabhi tujhe pane ka yakeen,
Phir bhi tujhe naa paakar mera dil haatash kyun hai?

Aankhon me aansun or unka behke mere laboon ko bhigona ,
Phir bhi mujhe ajab si pyaas kyun hai ?
........