Well this was my Gtalk status for today and it got few comments from people on my contact list and some of them do wanted to know what happened? why this status?
I really thought a lot about writing this post in a way that I won't have to touch what happened but after thinking a lot the voice within me told me that you need not hide it from your blog.
So , yes I cried today in the morning(ok it wasn't like tears were flowing from my eyes just that my eyes got wet and its not that a rare phenomenon since last year) while sitting in the office bus (I generally sit alone so don't worry I din't embarass myself and generally people hardly notice me :) ) but why ? thats all together a different post. And seeing the urge to write (this happens to be the 6th post and the 4th published post I am writing today. and I skipped my guitar class to write this) I might write that too.
Ok coming to that status. Generally my morning happens this way. Sitting in the bus , when the bus hits the expressway, I close the book I am reading and close my eyes and then start dreaming (I try hard to sleep but due to some apparent reasons I can't, so its generally day dreaming). And then the thoughts I am pondering upon lead to some statement or quote and that becomes my status for the day.
So today as my eyes were wet , a statement which till last few years used to bother me because of my lack of crying, sprang into my mind "Boys don't cry" and immediately another voice rebelled saying "Boys do cry" and a series of incidents flashed into my mind.
Ok one sign that I generally associate with maturity is not being able to shed tears(I mean constant flow of tears from your eyes) and this has disturbed me a lot in past and I somehow accepted it as an ill effect of "getting mature" but ever since my
Masi died and tears rolled down my eyes I somehow thought that its not that true.
So coming to the statement and incidents , yes we boys do cry. One of my contact commented that "Yes boys cry ..in loneliness" but I said "Not only then, I have seen people(I mean boys) cry even in front of their friends".
So the incidents that flashed in my mind starts from way back when I was in school. One of my friend who was quite Macho in his attitude cried in front of us on hearing that one of our close friend's father had died. I was sad and I cried too at home but I still remember the image of my that other friend(the macho one) crying while discussing it with us. I know it was indeed a very sad incident but I just couldn't imagine him at that time crying in front of everyone.
The next incident was that of Veeru Dada , who happens to be quite an emotional guy . He cried twice,many times more, but these two were significant. First one was when he cried while talking to one of our friend(girl and she was just friend and married now :) ) and I don't remember why but he told me later that he did and then again when we cancelled a party at his house after he had already arranged everything . Ok it wasn't a childish cry of why you guys cancelled it, it was more out of the circumstances in which it was cancelled. And after that many times in private either just in front of me or our close friends.
Then came an incident when I cried while still being in college, owing to a comment made by one of my friends about me and another friend and when all the involved people came to know that it made me cry , they all cried. :)
Then on the last day of our college , Mr Chocolaty cried and since that was the life-changing day of my life(the day after which my life changed for both good and bad), I couldn't sympathise with him and I just laughed. But had it been one of my normal day I would have cried too.
Next was when Mr NRI cried in the SRS parking lot(forgive me if I goofed up the order), he just got so frustrated with the way everything was going on in his life and he just couldn't hold back his tears. We all hugged him and consoled him.
Another incident was when we went to our village as my grand mother has died (One more of an incident which strengthen my then believe of boys don't cry as tears din't flow) and sitting there while my Dad was talking to my Pishi (Father's sister), I for the first time saw my Dad cry. Again I used to think when I was a kid that My Dad don't cry because he is mature. But that day I saw him cry for his mother.
All these incidents strengthens the fact that boys do cry and its definitely good to cry at times and as Dev says that it helps to clean your eyes too :)
I can see myself and my friends crying on a very emotional occasion, both happy and sad and I don't think anyone of us will try to hold our tears back then. And believe me crying do help a lot :)
PS: I am fine now so no need to worry :)
